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You are not a lunatic




I am someone who spends a lot of time in their car. It's where I allow my mind to wander. I also believe music can change your world. I think it is one of the most influential parts of life.




A couple weeks ago when I was preparing for my Andy Grammer and Gavin Degraw concert, I was listening to this albums thinking about life. I was extremely frustrated and didn't know if I could continue on with this licensing journey.  It one thing to not have a placement because there are no kids who need a home. That's a good thing. In this situation, emotionally handing the ups and downs of timelines, hearing stories of kids needing homes and having to be outsourced because there are no foster families who will take them yet I am just waiting.  I kept feeling, is this the right path for me, should I throw in the towel. And then this amazing song starts playing and a sense of relief and feeling that everything will be okay flooded me. Being a foster parent is what I am meant to do. Maybe it isn't meant to be in MY timeline of the summer of 2016 but giving up is not an option. There are kids who need homes and 1 social worker, 1 agency, 1 state, 1 nation is not going to stop me from being there for those kids. I am not a lunatic, crazy, would be to leave it all behind.




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