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A lot has changed in four years......

I forgot how much I missed blogging and sharing my journey and stories. A LOT has changed in the last four years and over the course of the summer, we are for sure going to dive deep into the mental health all these changes have had.  To say I have went through a lifetime of changes in a short amount of time would be an understatement. So with a new blog title as I am officially a forever mom and this is now more than just foster care, it is time to kick things back off.  So here we go......

Since my last post May 2017, we reunified my second foster daughter (there was a brief single mom with two under two), I reconnected with a high school friend, reunified my first foster daughter, took my third foster daughter home from the hospital, got pregnant, got engaged, learned my baby may need surgery as soon as he was born, had weekly ultrasounds, bought a house, had a baby (no surgery was needed!), sold a house, reunified our third foster daughter,  got married, gained a step son, started therapy, took a placement of two foster BOYS and then COVID hit. 

Ok, you are caught up to March 2020.  

However I continued down a not so good path and was headed to massive burnout where my therapist threatened to hospitalize me in July 2020 if I didn't start making progress.  Guess what.... I started making progress. I need in your face sometimes!  As I continued to improve myself, my husband struggled with things and refused to get therapy.  Our marriage suffered and finally came to a massive head the day before Valentines day 2021.  We are working on ourselves and our relationship but I would be lying if I said things have been amazing the last 3 months, hell the last 3 years. BUT there has been some good too and we are working at finding the positives in life and moving forward. 

Our main positive in my life is my boys. First and always, my Henry. I waited my whole life for him. Second my bonus son, "B". We are working on our connection with each other and some days are a struggle but I am thankful for him (and our bonus family- his mom, stepdad and sister!). Third is my last two boys are in the process of being placed with their sisters! So we get to reunify siblings next month! YAY positives in foster care.  We bought a camper! (it is a disaster and is currently being gutted as my foot went through the floor) BUT I love it!!  I also began attending church again. I have started to find some mom friends and women elevating professional friends who have helped me to see there is an entirely different world out there.  I have started reading uplifting "go women" books and surrounding myself with positively.  I have daily fights with myself to not go back down the burnout hole, but I am getting better and better each day at telling it to shove it. Plus my kid keeps me focused. There will be a lot of stories about "Denis" (the mentis) that I can't wait to share (sneak peek below)! 

Here is to new beginnings and sometimes a much needed start over! Stay tuned!! 



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